Reentry

arighino
Aug 1, 2025
2 min read

Wow, I have wanted to write about retreat since I go back last Friday, but has been a very rocky reentry.

When I logged in to work Monday morning, after a week of being mostly off-grid, sleeping in a wall tent in Colorado; I discovered I that there was yet another huge mistake and a blank email went out to 160k contacts.

UGHHH. It has made for a very unpleasant week or humiliation and apologies. Honestly though, all of these issues have passed through three different checks by three different people, so it’s not just me. BUT, I have never been in this situation. It’s very humbling. And frustrating.

I’m wondering if the radioactive iodine really messed with my brain, but for now I’m just going to try to dust myself off, remember that I’m human, and try to do my best. I know I need to make a change, but we need a place to live first!

Our application was approved for one, and we are just waiting on the lease to come through and be signed! If all goes well, we should be able to move in next week sometime. I’m just keeping my fingers crossed. Please wish us luck!

The retreat ended lovely, it was such a nice safety net of vulnerability and support. The first four days were very hard, then on the fourth night, I had two separate dreams in which Jeremy was shot! It was a terrifying day until I heard from him and knew he was ok. I tried to talk about it in one of our sessions and ended up ugly-crying in front of everyone. There was so much support, comfort, and hugs from everyone there. I was so grateful that I felt a lot lighter after that. Losing him is by far my biggest fear, and that definitely caused a lot of inner turmoil. I was nourished and ready to come back by the end, feeling far more spacious and present. At least until Monday happened.

This Wednesday we went out to dinner for our belated 15th anniversary celebration! We went to a gorgeous farm that makes everything from it’s own land and other local farms. The land is gorgeous and everything about it was lovely. The ambiance, the service, the food, and the cocktails, were all incredible. It was worthy of 15 years.