New Mexican

“You are the storyteller of your own life, and you can create your own legend, or not.” Isabel Allende

>If you don’t have much time, skip to the end, I have questions!<

It has been an emotional couple of weeks.The ups and down of life,  flowing amidst the ebbs and flows.

We went into the woods the weekend before last,  which we so desperately needed. And it didn’t disappoint.

It was gorgeous,  and we were able to chill out and let it hold us. Jeremy brought up that he thinks we have a lot to learn here. I can’t hear, and thought he said we have a lot to love here. In the end, both are true.

I’ve realized I’ve been resisting for so long; constantly thinking about what I don’t want in my life. I’m trying to shift into focusing on what I do want and what I can give. It’s providing me a new way of looking at things.

I want to be open-hearted and present.

I want to get back to myself after being tied up in this move. 

I’ve done most of the things; address updates, dmv trip, furniture ordered and put together. I’m now an official New Mexican, with license, license plate, and voter registration!

We live in new Mexico now. It’s crazy!

It seems like yesterday that I just did all this in Oregon. And then cancer happened and it was all a whirlwind. I think in some ways, my nervous system is bracing for the next thing, and I’m trying to remind myself that we are safe.

I did find a pcp and had my appointment last week. I don’t think I realized how nervous I was about it until I met her and realized she was going to be great. She asked questions about my history, knew what my disease was, and listened to me. We joked at how low my bar was because I was excited she didn’t have to google my autoimmune! I also told her about finding cancer at my previous establish care visit in Oregon.  She responded “it must be really nerve wracking for you to come to these appointments.” I exhaled from somewhere deep and told her I was a mediator to get through such things.

Which is true, it’s how I regulate myself through all these crazy experiences; and I sometimes still more of an anxious mess than you would guess. Nonetheless, I’m SO grateful to feel like I have someone in my corner here if needed.

This weekend, we decided to stay in town since my ankle has been acting up after those falls during our move. It swelled up and bruised pretty good after the hike last weekend so I’m taking it easy and icing it often. Saturday we went up to the top of the Sandias and just took in the view and let Zie sniff around a bit.

Jeremy is getting settled in his job. It’s been a big adjustment, but he’s loving his colleagues and enjoying connecting with people. They had an event last week for him to meet all the volunteers and I was invited. It was so great to put faces to names and hear how much he’s valued. His co workers even said that he’s so amazing and that his empathy in those situations is unmatched. They even had ‘welcome Jeremy’ cookies made, it was very sweet. He is going to have a huge impact on people there and I am so proud of him.

Lastly, I’d love some feedback. I’m debating on paying someone to transfer my content to a new (less archaic) web platform and help me position coaching. I want to help others that have been knocked off kilter by a diagnosis/life change/loss. Please let me know:

• Do you have suggestions on how the site is set up?

• Do you care (or even notice) what platform it’s on?

• Is there something else helpful on here that I should write/provide?

• Do you have a good name suggestion for me (he said stubbornheart may not be the best if I’m focused on coaching, and frankly, he’s not wrong, AND it’s definitely accurate for me)

Thank you!