Chchchchanges

This is the post I’ve been struggling to write.

Just to level set,  were both healthy and there’s no bad news!

I just got bloodwork,  and this latest test result showed that my tsh is still too low,  so we’re adjusting my medication AGAIN.

The tsh was 0.07 when it’s supposed to be between .01 and .5. The tumor marker was 14.2, so up a little bit but not too concerning considering we wanted my tsh to rise.  She reminded me last time that they go hand in hand. So that’s that. Another blood test in 6 weeks.

The news I’ve been having a hard time with us that we had the photos taken on Monday; were putting our beautiful,  cozy,  Oregon home on the market.

Don’t get me wrong,  we love it here.  It was a gamble when we bought,  and we knew it.  A part of us definitely feels like failures.  But,  it was our goal to be able to live in the pnw for at least two years, and we accomplished that!

We knew it was going to be hard to live out here,  so far from our people and on the opposite end of the country from our families, and yet we knew this place called us and had so much to provide us.

It delivered.

I credit this place and it’s gorgeousness with keeping me alive,  Not to mention, it was moving here that led me to set up the pcp doctor appointment that found the cancer. Otherwise, I might not even have known.

Nonetheless,  our interest rate is nonsense and, while we could make it work if we really wanted to suffer,  we did what we set out to do and it feels complete.  I wouldn’t hate avoiding fire season either.

So,  we contacted our Oregon realtor and are going  through the (really awful) process of having it listed.

Last week,  we took all of the things that make our home feel like home, out of it, to make it look ‘attractive’ to others.

For some reason I had a very hard time with this! I realized that I don’t like people messing with my shit! It was very unsettling and something I clearly need to work on.

Alas,  the listing should be to next week,  if anyone is interested in moving to Oregon (highly recommend).

We’re just hoping to at least break even on it,  or maybe even make a lil. Fingers crossed. 

Ugh.  It still feels a little painful,  I won’t lie,  but i know that when we’re somewhere slightly closer to our people, it will be worth it. 

Jeremy has to find a job, so that will be the determining factor.  We’re targeting southern Colorado or new Mexico.  Both are closer to Austin,  shorter flight to family, and both have some of our people,  which is something we have been missing.

So,  were back in the uncertainty phase,  which isn’t my favorite,  but at least this time,  it’s more of an adventure than sludging through cancer. 

The listing goes up this week and I’ll share it when it posts. It’s been a cozy house to call home.

And we know we can recreate it wherever we go.